Yesterday we held a memorial Gnostic Mass and celebration for Lauri at Blue Horizon Oasis. The warmth and energy (and just the sheer number of people there) were amazing. Thank you to everyone who helped see her off right.
Many of those in attendance never knew Lauri in her prime, but a few old Baphomet Lodge hands were there, which made for a lot of wistful story telling, to each other and to those who wanted to hear us old farts carrying on about the golden age. I brought along some of Lauri's things, which we laid out on a small memorial altar. One of these was her Deacon book from the early 90s, which included lists of Mass attendees which further fueled the nostalgia. Another item on the altar was her original Priestess sword, an antique Spanish cavalry sword with a sheath that was in bad shape when she got it, and progressively fell to pieces as she used it. The last several inches of the blade now show through a gap in the leather.
All of this put me in mind of my favorite Byron poem, which I dedicate to Lauri, to z111
, to leroy484
, to solis93
, to Helena, to sabazius_x
, and to everyone else who was there back when everything was new.
So we will go no more a-roving
So, we'll go no more a-roving
So late into the night,
Though the heart be still as loving,
And the moon be still as bright.
For the sword outwears the sheath,
And the soul wears out the breast,
and the heart must pause to breathe,
And love itself have rest.
Though the night was made for loving,
And the day returns too soon,
Yet we will go no more a-roving
By the light of the moon.
Wed, Mar. 11th, 2009, 12:54 pm
Thank you, everyone who has contacted me regarding Lauri's death. It's amazing how much all the love and support have helped me andmadelineusher
. I don't know what I did to deserve a circle of friends like you all, but I'm very glad I did it.
Life is starting to return to normal, despite surreal moments intruding now and then. This weekend I will be traveling to Salem to help present an OTO Advanced Initiator Training
session, which seemed impossible a few days ago, but sounds quite good right now. A change of scenery and seeing some distant friends will be very good for me, I think.
Tue, Mar. 3rd, 2009, 01:11 pm
News about this is spreading, and many kind and considerate people aren't sure how much they can discuss without my permission. So, for them as well as those who may not yet have heard: My wife Lauri, laurellady
on LJ, died two days ago on Sunday March 1. My daughter madelineusher
and I are being supported by dozens of friends and loved ones, to whom I am incredibly grateful.
The title of this post, "Memento Vivere", was Lauri's motto in the fraternal order Ordo Templi Orientis
. It means "Remember to Live", and I am sure that is the message she would want to send to all of you.
Thu, Feb. 19th, 2009, 12:07 pm
Well, there goes the morale booster I've been counting on. This announcement was just posted on the YesWorld site
February 19, 2009 - In the Present Tour Cancelled
The “In The Present Tour,” featuring Yes’ Steve Howe, Chris Squire and Alan White, is cancelling the remaining scheduled shows.
Chris underwent surgery on his leg on February 11, 2009. The operation was successful and Chris is on his way to a full recovery. However, Chris has been advised by his physician that he needs a one month rest period, hence the reason for the cancellation of the rest of the tour dates.
As previously stated, Chris and the rest of the band wishes to apologize for any inconvenience that this might have caused to their fans and hopes to see them again soon.
I was really really really
looking forward to the 2/27 show in LA. Rats. :(
My daughter madelineusher
, who spends a lot more time exploring this system of tubes than I do, clued me in to this article on nine real-life mad scientists
. Our old pal Jack Parsons is number eight -- second in the article, as they're counting down. Given it's a humor piece, they don't do a bad job of summing up his life, despite little goofs like saying Parsons practiced "the Thelema". The other eight mad scientists also make for fun reading. Enjoy.
Looking northeast down Wilshire from the corner of Westholme at around 9 this morning. This was one of those cold crisp sunny LA winter mornings that I love so much. My little apartment building is behind the building on the far right, by the way.
I can't believe I'm about to write this, but I find myself agreeing with the Republicans on the stimulus package. It's filled with funding which has no credible link to immediate economic stimulus. I mean, sure, virtually any money the government spends will create jobs, but that argument is disingenuous. Programs like alternative energy research, however much I may support them, belong in a different bill. The tactic of cramming pet programs into a "must pass" mega-bill disgusted me when Republicans were doing it, and it's only fair to be disgusted now that the Democrats are doing it.
Sometimes I hate politics. Those times being days with Y in them. :P
Mon, Feb. 2nd, 2009, 12:21 pm
Many of my friends need this poem
right now. Hang in there...I love you all.
The moon and Venus about four degrees apart in the evening sky. This was taken last night (2009/01/29) with my G1 phone's camera, and I haven't done any image enhancement work on it. You can see a little jiggle from the long exposure, but overall I'm amazed this came out so well.